Today when I got to school, and the first step I walk in the classroom. My stupid, racist, Arabian, know-it-all son of a bitch of a teacher of mine said, "Ryan, I'm dropping you from my class. Bye-Bye," in front of an entire class. Those are his exact words. I'm was so shock, I think I froze for a second or two. I really didn't say anything after that. Then I gave him the "Egh, whatever" shrug, and left.

After I left, I sat on the waiting room (communal couch and wait till class begins) thinking "What happened?" I have no idea. I mean what am I gonna do? I paid almost two hundred for that class, and the semester is almost over. Two more months.

He could just drop dead!

Each night people would site down on their couch, relax, and enjoy their favorite TV shows. Some would like comedy, others choose drama, and some crave the tension of reality. We watch shows that generally describe us, and made us feel great at the end. Some watch comedy because it makes us laugh, and it would make us feel better whether we had a bad day or a great one. We just want to laugh the day away. Drama people want excitement in their lives. They want the dilemma of this or that, a decision that harm one's live or benefit the other's live. Plus, they are the people you could count on to be there for you. Then the reality folks want something that is like everyday life. Not something fabricated just for ratings or so real that it is unrealistic.

I have never had a thing for reality TV. To me, they're not that real, and it's not even a show anymore. It's more like a journey, everyday life puts in front of a camera. I couldn't help but wonder, are reality TV shows just as real as real life, and if so, how real is it?

What we see on TV is all rehearsed, scene by scene. The producer tells the cast what to say and what not to say. In fact, the network had filmed all the episodes first before they even release it on air. That gives them time to edit the things they don't want us to see.

Then I got to think, if our everyday life is real, then why do people need reality shows? Wouldn't it be easy just to watch our neighbors or friends? Most people would choose the life on TV, because they know how to solve the problem onscreen. If we see a dilemma on the show we like, we know how to react or know what to do; that because we watch it from the beginning. But in real life we don't know what is going to happen. Sometimes it takes us a while to realized what we did could hurt us or the other person. There no rewind button for us to go back and fixed it. It all seems too easy on TV, and then it happened to us.

There is no do-over in real life, but as I say, on TV it all been rehearsed, to show the good and not the bad. Eventhough, real life can be tough, unpredictable, and no script to tell us what to say or do; we just have to take life as it is. No "camera, lights and action," take life head on. And whatever you do or say, you're the star of your own show; and that is the perfect show of all.

Wow I have gone through at least 3 layouts in the past two months. For me that's a lot. I havent' had time to submit my "Sorry For Love" layout. My last one was temporary, the banner is from Kristine.

This layout will be soon be submit to createblog, and I have three more like this one. I finally got a radio blog, it been around for a long time, but I don't have the space to host it. Plus it's entirely base on HTML and not PHP.

Check back soon.

In a person's live, there are certain events that made more wiser than we already are. For example, when we were young, we start out with a clean slate. There are things to learn, words to read, and shoes to walk. We never want anything more from life except sweets, TV, and time with our neighbor. We could get anything we want, one way or another. Mom would try to get us to eat our vegetables or take our vitamins, and we would come up with a win-win deal. Like we would get something if we do a certain thing.

Then comes the teenage year, where we think we are "it," and only the teens matter. We would do anything to look like our peers. Unfortunately, we take it to the extreme. Meaning we have to have it, no matter what. We work to get the clothes everyone is wearing, listen to the latest music, and change our looks to look like one another. It all seems to surreal. At that point, we think that is normal, but little we know it was nothing more than just a fad.

After a while, when we get to our mid-teen year, where everyone go in their own directions. Kids starting to do their own things, rather then what everyone is doing. But we start to find the people who have common interests, and pick up on the things they're doing. Then we divide into groups: emo, Goth, cheerleader, thespian, band, and so on. It all seems that we found our family outside our family. I couldn't help but wonder, can we really be ourselves, and if so, how can we stay that way?

Charles Darwin theorizes that we change accordingly to our surroundings. We must adapt in order to survive, evolution. He even wrote a book on it, and spent a great part of life devoted to find answers. Plus he thinks evolution is how we strive from a single-cell species to the dominant species today.

So I guess we can't stay ourselves because the world around us is and always changing, but we adapt to the new founding. Then I got to think, I know changes are inevitable, but do we need to change our personality, appearance, or even the way we associate with others, just because something around us we don't like? Like I said with the groups, it tells us who we are.

In Florida, there are millions of people, thousands of jobs, and hundred of schools. You think that would satisfied one person's need of a great job and money. We all plan out our lives on a piece of paper, in our minds, and sometimes with our closest friends. It all seems way too easy when you know what you want, but to actually achieve it, that is an another story.

In our lives, we all have certain things that make us get up every morning: family, to support us, friends, who we spend time with, and a job, so we can buy the things we need and/or like. Some would say "you got a great life and you're happy, that's what counts." But to others, you might not hear those things. I couldn't help but wonder, in this day and age, can everyone be happy with the choices you made?

Maybe you're happy, your friends support you, and your family is furious. Like I said with thousands of jobs opportunities, how can they not be happy. There a perfect job out there. We don't know unless we tried and people change their career about three times or maybe more, before they find their niche. So it's not like your choices are a mistake, if so, you'll learn. Then I got to think, are there any wrong choices?

The choices we made affect all the people around us and yourself. Maybe not in a catastrophic way, but slightly. But then again, we're humans, and us humans make mistakes. And if you want happiness, you just got to try to find it. Your friends and family may not be happy and supportive, but eventually they'll support you, and that's what counts.